Out Of Sudden (I choose to love you)

Hi! Assalamualaikum...
It has been a long time since my last update, right? Sorry guys, because haven't update for quite some time... I'm just too busy with lots of things... (even though I know, no one miss my blog's update)...
Okey, right now, I'm gonna to update something that out of blue, came and disturbed my mind... I don't why, but jyeah it's just suddenly happen...

It happen just now, while I was studying and listening to music (Hyori, I Choose To Love You). Suddenly his name came in my mind and I felt sad and heartbroken... I really hate that feeling,  because it's really interfere my mind... Why he must came to my mind? (Yeah, we can't hold it)

Dear Syazwan, I hope you understand why I want we to breakup... It wasn't I not loving you or else... It just because I don't want to hurt you... I was here, studying at a place that so far away from your sight... Around me,  there are lot of guys... I don't want you to feel insecure and have no confidence on me... I just hate people who doesn't believe me... More, you are too kind for me, I know its my fault because at first I have gave you a hope... And then, I hurt you... But, if you really understand with what I'm saying on our last met, you'll never misunderstand and stay hoping on me... Wan, I hope you want to find your own happiness and never wait for me anymore... I will never be back to you again, because I already hurt you...

Seriously, I cried just now. How cruel I was. Doing that to him... But trust me, its for both of us good sake... I really hope he'll understand that and won't do anything wrong... I'm not hurting you as what your ex have done to you...

Sometimes, we never realise how we have hurt others... Sometimes, by our words or attitudes, we already make someone felt hurt... So, guys be careful with anything we wanna do or gonna do... Think before act... 

That's all for today update... I really hope you guy enjoy reading this mumbling blog... I'm just an extraordinary normal girl, who live to make everyone smile and laugh...

I Know I'm Not The First...

So, Let Me Be The Last!

Hai!!!!! Assalamualaikum... How's your day? Oh it's not too late right? Selamat hari Aidiladha to all my muslims friends... Okey done wishing for Raya, now lets back to our topic!

Everyone always want to be the first, wishing birthday to someone. Because for the first person will always be remembered for a longer time. Yes, I know! But I always never make it to be the first one. And I doesn't want to be the second, third or so on.

 So, let me be  the last person, wishing you a happy birthday! Yesterday (15/10) was Zelo(B.A.P) birthday. I didn't make it to wish him on that day, so, today I wishing him " Happy Birthday and May Success Always Goes Along With You. Saranghae To My Lovely Favourite Maknae, Choi Jun Hong!!!!"

For me, I love to be the last person wishing birthdays. Because, it most remembered turns. " I remember this girl. Yes I know her, she's the last person, wishing happy birthday to me". That's what I always being remembered. (haha, sounds very funny)

 So, thats all my update for this entry. Don't forget me to support and follow me. Thanks for your time(spending while reading my (nonsense) blog. Yeay!

 "Just The Last Person in Wishing Birthdays, Not The Last in Exam, Class and Life. Okey!!!"

Sorry

Hi! Assalamualaikum...
Yeah! Sorry... I'm sorry... For everything that I've done... For what I've said.... For anything that I've lose for... why? Because five simple letters, is too difficult expressed ...Because it is like a ghost ... Because of one phrase, he will "DIE" ... That's why .. Not because I want to die, I'm not ... But human are too ego to expressed it... Do you realize that those five letters are able to impacting beautifully...

I love this letters... Because it may give me something that I never expected... Such as:

One day, I had a fight with someone ... Almost a month and do not say hello ... Me and him, both are ego ... Don't want to loose... I want him to apologize beforehand .... And he also wants me first apologize ... But eventually, I began to realize ... Whoever humbles the ego, and apologize in advance, he is the real hero. He is the champion and he is the hero of a successful. 
So, I came and met him ... With a face that still are not satisfied, we sat opposite each other. At that time, too difficult for me to express in words. He also demurred. like a mouth full of gold. Finally, after almost two hours of silence, I began to speak ... "You, I came this because I want to tell you something ... Hurm I'm sorry ... I know I should not have suspected on you. Although I have to had this feeling because you often don't have much time for me, but I should not suspect you like that .. I promise I will not do like that anymore ."
And guess what he said?
"Dear, I'm actually love you so much. It wasn't  my intent to make you suspicious, I actually do not know what your feelings that time. I just though that you understand my situation. unconsciously, I had hurt my lover. I should be sorry. because I do not think one dear noticed. Will you forgive me? Lets make this as a guide, so that we won't repeat it again ... Honey, may I make a promise? Once the your graduation ends, I want us to get married. Agree?"

Yeah! Sounds so dramatic... But that is the power of "Sorry"

Ends...

Again???

Hi!!! Assalamualaikum.... It was a very long time, haven't updated anything...

Yeah... Like always, I'm feeling well and great... But, how about you all? Ngeeeeee~~~

Again? Yeah! Again.... 

            I was fallen in love before... And again, I still fallen in love...

But, with somebody else... Who is he? He is...............................

Mario Maurer

Ahah!!!! You have cheated!!!! Actually, I'm not in love with this hot guy... But.....

Yes I do! (little bit love with him) But seriously, it wasn't him okey... Trust me

I really have fallen in love, again, with someone who has long been separated. That was way ahead of me before. For three years, eventually becoming the scar wounds, bloody back.

What is this? Suddenly out of this sad sentence? Haha ... I'm also an occasional nonsense verse out like this. doesn't wrong, right?

Seriously, I really really miss him.... Damn! It's too much miss.... Dear love one, Do you know how I feel? For the past three years, it was too hard for me. Being apart from you. 

Although I know, the separation that happens between us, never too little, teasing your heart. I know, that you are too ego. But I also know, the time of the last day of our last meeting, there's something you want to convey. But seriously, you're ego. high ego!

Now, lets consider it as you and I, never met before, how would it be?

Of course it's really really awkward... Being strange with someone that you love... Just imagine!

Okey! Done! That's my true story... How about you guys? Of course you all have something to say.. Am I right?

The End

StOp DoInG tHoSe 30 ThInGs

                 Hi!!!! Assalamualaikum!!!! Now I'm gonna to share this to my friends (its you la)
1)  Stop spending time with wrong person
2)  Stop runs from your own problems
3)  Stop lied to yourself
4)  Stop puts your needs behinds you
5)  Stop trying to be someone that you can't be
6)  Stop depends on your pasts
7)  Stop being afraid to make some mistake
8)  Stop judge yourself based on your pasts
9)  Stop trying to buy happiness
10) Stop just see others to be happy
11) Stop making yourself being idle
12) Stop with your unready thought
13) Stop get involve with any relationship with wrong reasons
14) Stop keep push any new relationship
15) Stop trying to compete with other people without reasonable cause
16) Stop being jealous with others
17) Stop complaining about yourself
18) Stop keep holding grudged/hatred
19) Stop letting others brought you to their level
20) Stop wasting time explained about yourself to others
21) Stop doing the same things again and again without get rest
22) Stop forgetting small moments of memories
23) Stop trying to make a perfect things
24) Stop get through a road with less obstacles 
25) Stop acting as  everything are fine, but it was otherwise
26) Stop trying to be everything to others
27) Stop being over worried
28) Stop keep blaming others on your own problems
29) Stop give attention on what you doesn't want it happen
30) Stop who doesn't want to be grateful 

                    Faith is still there, create the future ... Do yourself a longing to be good

          So????? Can or not? Yes you can!!!! We all can... It just whether you want it or not....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~> wow!!!!! A MOTIVATION session already <~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~